deanna. 20. far from what i once was, but not yet what i am going to be.

Saturday, October 18th

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I am good enough. I am talented and I am smart and I deserve to be happy and enjoy these assets.

I get anxiety over anxiety and I constantly tell myself negative things when thinking about my abilities as a musician. It’s toxic but I do it to myself. I take all the negativity and criticism and multiply it by 1000, then minimize the positives and belittle my achievements.

This needs to end now. I am in control of my thoughts, I am in control of my nerves and I will be prepared for what’s coming my way. I will be prepared for this recital, and I will sound beautiful while singing it. My voice is unique; yes it’s small, yes I’m still learning about how to use it to the best of my abilities. I need to stop telling myself all of these negative things because I’m doing the best I can.

I deserve to be calm. I deserve to be happy. Even if I’m not prepared, I still deserve these things. My anxieties are valid, I’m not blowing this out of proportion and it’s okay to feel anxious. But it’s not okay to tell myself I’m not talented. It’s not okay to tell myself that I’m not as good as the rest.

Comparing myself to others needs to end. I am my own person with my own strengths and weaknesses and a unique sound that is my own. I am hardworking, there are only so many hours in one day. I put in a lot of work. I deserve to relax, to sit down for dinner or spend a night with friends. I can turn the negatives around. I can go to the water or just picture it when I feel like it’s all too much.

I deserve to be at peace.

Posted: 4 days ago

Monday, October 13th

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nicethingsinuglyhandwriting:

"It’s always you in my big dreams" - from Konstantine by Something Corporate.

Monday, October 13th

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chryolain:

I need absolutely no context

Monday, October 13th

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escapethegrey:

This is what October is all about - crying wishing you were at Hogwarts enjoying beautifully warm and delicious feasts

Monday, October 13th

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kwineya:

indie ~

Monday, October 13th

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prettypasta:

Fresh Tomato & Ricotta Whole Wheat Pasta

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  • me: im so bored
  • me: i have nothing to do
  • me: i wish i had something to do
  • basic responsibilities: yo
  • me: not u
  • me: anyway
  • me: im so bored
  • me: i have nothing to do

Posted: 1 week ago

Monday, October 13th

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voldy92:

there is nothing rarer and more beautiful than liking every song on an album

Posted: 1 week ago

Monday, October 13th

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